What would you give up?

The end of this week, we will be going at this for a month.  Had you asked me a month ago exactly if I would ever eliminate fresh fruits/veggies from the lives of my children I would have looked at you as though you had 12 heads.  Who in their right mind would eliminate anything fresh, local, and healthy.

A month later, I'm no longer certain it's as simple as I had always believed.

Last Sunday, I threw up our huge Hail Mary.  I figured a Sunday was an appropriate day to do it, since I needed all the strength of the great lord above, to test if our lives would be forever, permanently altered.  We had pasta, with meatballs, and tomato sauce for dinner.

If you haven't been following, this doesn't sound bad.  But if you have been, you know that we're testing our daughter for Salicylate sensativity.  And there are certain fruits/veggies that people with salicylate sensitivity can react to.

So having finally gotten good behavior from our daughter, we gave it a go.  We're Italian.  Living without tomato sauce has been challenging, it's the go to, fall back choice for dinner at all times.

Best news all month.  It resulted in no major regression.  

Feeling as though we were on top of this, this week we decided to try a new salicylate fruit/veggie.  Peaches are ripe, local, and YUMMY right now.  So peaches it is.

To my dismay, after consuming all the wonderful goodness that can only be found in a tasty peachy treat, within hours, my husband and I could WATCH the regression.  My husband is very practical and not easily swayed or mislead, and if it weren't for his firm confidence that what we were seeing was a complete regression in her behavior, and his confidence over the cause...  I wouldn't have believed it myself.  How was it even possible that something so healthy for her, could send her spiraling out of control.

At the end of the day/week, we've learned 2 things, our family can still have tomato sauce, and Ellie has a Gremlin like reaction to Peaches.  

I don't feel like I've wrapped my head around this.  Because, well, peaches are so fantastic!  But it was empowering to be able to look at her and know, it wasn't her.  And that I could help her.  And that even though I can't imagine it, I do know what I would give up.  Just about anything to see my sweet baby girl not be so broken hearted.  Nobody would question giving up milk or peanuts, or soy if it were an allergy to those things.  So now I just have to wrap my head around it.  I just want my sweet girl back.